coughing out my thoughts

you know how people always think about how their life would be ten years down the line? do they really know? me neither!
i think there is much fun in your life when you allow it to unfold itself. its like, to open christmas presents on christmas eve. i always thought that i will follow this rule, but wait a minute ... am i not doing the same here? planning my life to let it unfold itself? it makes me wonder if human beings are robots and infact they always were robots all along, they just dont realise it. i guess the invention of robotics and advanced AIs are just mere extensions of true human self. the mere thought of controlling every godamm parameter.
i mean, have you ever spent 2 minutes with yourself and not thought of anything, anything at all? the answer is NO, you havent! neither have i. i wonder if there was a way to switch off or go on "stand by" mode, just too see what happens when i dont think, at all! i cant even paint the picture. same old things popping in the head, "i have to eat","i have to sleep","i have gottu shit" ... and belive me i have tried not to think and keep my mind blank for just 1 second. fk! cant do it! really cant. the moment i stop thinking, something pops up, like "ohh shit, my battery is low" ... or ... "what did i eat today?" ... or ... "hmm hmm hmm" ... or ... "whose singing?". you cannot put the brakes on your brain!
you guys think i have gone nutts, but the truth is, we humans are the freakiest when we are alone. dont belive me? lets have and example shall we.
* how many of you donot pick your nose when you think no ones watching? answer: no one! :)
* how many of you donot fantasize yourself with your favorite celebrity? answer: no one :)
* how many of you donot want to walk around naked when you are sure that no one is gonna walk in? answer: no one :)
* how many of you dont feel disgusted when you fart (i am not saying bad, i am saying hiroshima bad :P)? answer: no one :)

there are many more examples, but i guess these are the very basic ones. there are weirder cases too but i will not go into that, i guess we like them all but dont like to discuss them. and i know we shouldnt! otherwise tomorrow you meet this guy named "nathan" who you know likes to walk naked when alone, you'll address him like this: "hi nake-than" ... i will not be surprised if you even see him naked ... of course, thats in your head but wont that be a sight? ... lol ...
in the nutt shell i just wanna tell you guys that mind has no limits, and by that i mean in every dimensions.
woaah ... ohh man, i thought i was doing my "not thinking thingy!"
so much for the peace of mind, eh?


keep thinking ... the moment you stop thinking ... you are dead!